I'm so sorry you're going through this. I don't have the answers for you.
I tried to move from VA to NC for a job in 2010 and I became so depressed because I was alone. For me, the answer was moving back home to VA. I've been back since 2014. I didn't fail; I tried something new and I didn't like it.
I hope you have a peaceful time with your parents. Hang in there!
I’m starting to think about moving out of Lubbock. It was absolutely the right choice for me to move here! But I think now, it’s just making things worse.
I’m going back for more treatment though in a few weeks, and that might change my perspective. So we’ll see. 🤷♂️
I appreciate your support, and I’m really glad this letter spoke to you.
Michael, I wish I had the answers. I don't, none of us do, I think.
I read something recently that said for us to accept Christ as our savior, truly accept him, that we have to hit rock bottom so that we are authentic and not pretending to accept his gift. I don't know if we have ever really talked about that type of thing because until recently I haven't been all that interested in hearing those topics. I won't preach to you, I do not have the knowledge to be able to recite any of the scriptures and I'm exploring this myself.
It sounds like rock bottom is where you are or very close to it. Maybe your answer is somewhere in your faith. It sounds like it could be a safe place. Safe to explore the answers and not be a perceived disappointment to anyone.
The only person who you need to be concerned with is you. No impressing anyone else, its not necessary to do that to heal. You need to find yourself, and what that means to you.
Moving closer to your parents (if they are supportive) may be a good thing. Closer but not into their house?
I am happy you are seeking answers. I'm sad it is causing you much pain.
I'm very sorry to hear about your problem, Michael, and I don't have any specific advice, but I do have some thoughts about it.
1/ If the problem is that you feel alone (and, obviously, not "protected"), you have to turn back to where you KNOW the place and people. It will give you a greater sense of security. We often underestimate some signs, but our subconscious feels them. This is important for your subconscious, not for your mind. You need your subconscious to actively sustain you.
2/ Try doing something without expecting a reward. Help other people - but not on the internet. In real life.
Volunteer for an organization you enjoy and know you're good at; you are better than others.
Actively helping others is always the best way to feel valued.
The gratitude of the people you've helped gives you wings.
Beginning something new is very dangerous for you because you can fail, and it's the direct road to a nervous breakdown in your situation. Your task is to do something you are brave at in a place that can "sustain" you (you know, town and people) and without any expectation of a reward. And do it just to help others who are maybe in a worse situation. There are many different associations.
Here, in Italy, for example, some volunteers help to transport the disabled. I know one man who began to do it about 6 months ago (he has the same problem as you). Others help people in hospitals to find where they have to go.
I'm so sorry you're going through this. I don't have the answers for you.
I tried to move from VA to NC for a job in 2010 and I became so depressed because I was alone. For me, the answer was moving back home to VA. I've been back since 2014. I didn't fail; I tried something new and I didn't like it.
I hope you have a peaceful time with your parents. Hang in there!
I’m starting to think about moving out of Lubbock. It was absolutely the right choice for me to move here! But I think now, it’s just making things worse.
I’m going back for more treatment though in a few weeks, and that might change my perspective. So we’ll see. 🤷♂️
I appreciate your support, and I’m really glad this letter spoke to you.
Merry Christmas 🎄
You really have a way of sharing your story that I can relate to. Thank you!
Glad you're with family for the holidays. Sending best wishes across the miles, Michael Glenn.
Thanks Bobbi! Merry Christmas 🎄
Michael, I wish I had the answers. I don't, none of us do, I think.
I read something recently that said for us to accept Christ as our savior, truly accept him, that we have to hit rock bottom so that we are authentic and not pretending to accept his gift. I don't know if we have ever really talked about that type of thing because until recently I haven't been all that interested in hearing those topics. I won't preach to you, I do not have the knowledge to be able to recite any of the scriptures and I'm exploring this myself.
It sounds like rock bottom is where you are or very close to it. Maybe your answer is somewhere in your faith. It sounds like it could be a safe place. Safe to explore the answers and not be a perceived disappointment to anyone.
The only person who you need to be concerned with is you. No impressing anyone else, its not necessary to do that to heal. You need to find yourself, and what that means to you.
Moving closer to your parents (if they are supportive) may be a good thing. Closer but not into their house?
I am happy you are seeking answers. I'm sad it is causing you much pain.
I'm very sorry to hear about your problem, Michael, and I don't have any specific advice, but I do have some thoughts about it.
1/ If the problem is that you feel alone (and, obviously, not "protected"), you have to turn back to where you KNOW the place and people. It will give you a greater sense of security. We often underestimate some signs, but our subconscious feels them. This is important for your subconscious, not for your mind. You need your subconscious to actively sustain you.
2/ Try doing something without expecting a reward. Help other people - but not on the internet. In real life.
Volunteer for an organization you enjoy and know you're good at; you are better than others.
Actively helping others is always the best way to feel valued.
The gratitude of the people you've helped gives you wings.
Beginning something new is very dangerous for you because you can fail, and it's the direct road to a nervous breakdown in your situation. Your task is to do something you are brave at in a place that can "sustain" you (you know, town and people) and without any expectation of a reward. And do it just to help others who are maybe in a worse situation. There are many different associations.
Here, in Italy, for example, some volunteers help to transport the disabled. I know one man who began to do it about 6 months ago (he has the same problem as you). Others help people in hospitals to find where they have to go.